(Continued from previous post: Frozen with Attraction)
Dear Guides, I welcome your message about this story.
All messages come with full blessing from All There Is. We are of the Ra Group. We want to confirm our role as the deliverers of loving wisdom and glorious insights into a simpler, more love-filled existence. With this comes a reminder of the beauty of simplicity and goodness. We therefore thank all who share in this experience with The All Knowing Source.
All stories are intended to live in the hearts of people. People will mine each story according to the spiritual ore within their own lives and the levels of their evolutionary understanding.
Let us address yesterday’s story, Soul Dipper. We will first acknowledge that you picked the perfect human to be your mother in this lifetime. As an old soul, she, too, was highly intuitive. She gave you a vast amount of physical, emotional and spiritual space. You needed that to grow and develop fully.
She was psychic, but she was gentle about it. She never asked about my Rugby Player . She waited for me to tell her.
It is significant that you explain what happened.
About six years later, I was divorced and had transferred across the country to pursue a much coveted career. My Rugby Player tracked me down. I had kept touch with another Aussie and the two of them ended up being buddies. He phoned and invited me to New York where he was working for the United Nations. Of course I accepted.
When I arrived at JFKennedy Airport, my handsome Australian Rugby Player stood casually smiling as I somehow wove my way into his embrace. We whisked off to Manhattan in a UN limousine which was only the beginning of an extraordinary weekend. We had a hand-and-glove experience. Every detail dovetailed as we slipped together like masterly measured mahogany. It was a time warp of familiarity. It was so dramatically beautiful, I didn’t trust its authenticity.
I had a dilemma. My feelings for him were immense, but I’d just begun a highly unique career.
He proposed only a few weeks later. I turned him down. It happened too fast, but he had to return to Australia. I wanted time with my new career.
At the close of our last phone call, he said, “I know the reason you won’t marry me. It’s because my father is just a cab driver in Sydney.” I was floored. He had no concept of the importance of my career. Confused, I mundanely said, “My dad built roads into the Oil Patch.”
I knew he was hurt, but I was certain he would contact me later. I was wrong.
I slowly accepted he was gone. However, over the years, I couldn’t resist attempts to remind him of my existence. Everywhere I traveled, I met people from Sydney, Australia. I gave them his name and asked them to call him. The message was simply to say hello from me. I had remarried so he had no way of finding me.
In the previous post, my mother talked about not spoiling the experience. I believe what happened was meant to happen, but she’s right. My memory is more about the loss of him than the thrill of our initial meeting. But I cannot understand why we connected with such powerful feelings and it went no where. What was the purpose of that?
As commissioned by the All Loving Source, we may disclose information that will bring understanding. It is valid that you felt familiarity. In the 1700s in Ireland, he was a Catholic priest. You were the wife of a prominent man. You fell deeply in love with this priest and consummated the relationship. You became pregnant.
You and your husband had wanted children, but he was infertile though he did not know this. Your pregnancy delighted your unsuspecting husband though he was concerned that you were past safe child-bearing years. Your husband’s joy came nowhere near the depth of your Priest’s soul-resonating gratitude.
You wanted to raise your child with its rightful father. The priest and you developed a plan to leave the village together immediately after the baby was born. Months of living this lie with your husband caused you great agony. You had no peace. You could talk to no one. Your health declined. When you gave birth to a struggling baby boy, you died in childbirth.
Your priest grieved inconsolably. He confessed to his Bishop and was told that he could never make contact with his son or your husband. He obeyed, but his love for both of you never waned. Four years after your death, he moved to another location.
In this lifetime, when you turned down his marriage proposal, your Australian Rugby Player froze with fear of loss and abandonment. He could not attempt any further contact. His soul had tasted this loss before.
That explains a lot. So, since I had been unfaithful to my husband in that past life, was this an opportunity for me to experience deep love, but remain faithful to my husband? To choose the right path, so to speak?
That is part of it. You have a paradoxical mission of connection and avoidance – which is one shared by many who were on the Soul Safari with you last year.
But is that why we didn’t end up being together in this lifetime?
The key is with your Rugby Player. His primary mission for this lifetime was best fulfilled as a father. He had come into this incarnation to have children to fulfill his purpose. You, on the other hand, chose to have no children in this incarnation.
Each of you provided the impetus for the other to complete different, but vital missions. If you had married, he could not have completed his mission. You would not have completed another key mission which you experienced through your career.
Aha, so reconnecting forced us to exercise our own will. We demonstrated doing “God’s Will, not mine”. I see how we each took a step towards fulfilling our souls’ purposes. This is key. It’s amazing how understanding past lives puts so much into perspective. It spotlights fears that bridge over and into current lives with huge impact. It brings such clarity to life long confusion.
Some humans are in therapy for years agonizing over fears that had no origin in this lifetime.
Yes, I see there is no point trying to figure out the reasons for my decisions or actions with my Rugby Player. I declined his proposal because we both had missions to complete. And apparently we were both determined to complete them.
The beauty of this knowledge is that I feel fully free to simply love him. I don’t need to focus on losing him, I can just love him. Incredible. Thank you.
Okay, are you willing to talk about my mother’s prediction about intimacy?
When was the last time you spoke to high school students about their exploration of sexuality?
I’m told, through various sources, that young people experiment with either sex. But then these kids use the term “homo” as a put-down? What is that all about?
The sexuality exposed in your world today creates confusion. What is projected on humankind is largely fantasy, but people lose sight of this reality. It causes people to feel inadequate. While most humans know it may not be real, many focus on the sting of not having the attention, the apparent closeness, in their lives. Love has been lost and abused in the chaos of that belief system.
Regarding young people, they crave intimacy deeply. They fear its absence. It frightens them to feel alone. They don’t know what causes the fear so they link intimacy with their sexual desires. They catch themselves being attracted to either sex and, if they indulge in same sex activity, they think they have degraded themselves out of fear of being rejected. They project this anger onto others. These young people do not yet have the maturity to see that the intimacy they crave must come first with an inner knowledge of who they are. By knowing who they are, they would make choices that were true to their nature. This knowledge of self needs to be in alignment with the Divine Creator – with the all the Love that is the Universal Signature of our Loving Source. It cannot be fulfilled in the supposedly glorious sexual triumphs that some believe give others the intimacy they are craving.
This applies to both sexes regardless of their choice of lifestyle. Love is the antidote. Love is the power of the Universe. It is its fuel. It is. We rejoice over being able to remind the world of this Law.
Your message gives me a lot to consider. Thank you for your love and faithfulness.
Your gratitude glorifies our existence.