Caller ID on the ringing phone read “Out of Area”. 9:48 a.m. Saturday morning.
For three weeks, the promise of a lull in bed with a good book remained a promise. Finally, today, I did not have to feed anyone, go anywhere or do anything; my promise was being fulfilled. John Irving’s book, The Fourth Hand, propped comfortably on pillow number five, would hopefully reveal how a professional puts together a story around a hand transplant.
For some reason I chose to answer the phone, “Hello.” I could not recognize the voice, but it wasn’t a marketing caller.
“Hello, Amy?” It was my friend R., but with an unnaturally high pitch in his voice. He was working too hard at sounding okay.
“How are you doing?” I asked him.
“Great! I actually have a whole weekend off. I’m not on call, I am completely free. So I thought I’d drive up from Arkansas and visit my folks in Minnesota,” he said.
“Is your daughter with you?” As a single, childless professional, R. had taken on a very heavy responsibility a year ago. He had opened his home and life to a teen-aged step-daughter who would not live with her mother. Her mother is R.’s ex-wife.
“No, she’s not. She’s in Arkansas with her grandmother.” The pitch was still pronounced, but more lilting. “In fact, she moved out and is with her grandmother. Full time.”
“When did that happen?” I asked.
“About six wee…no, two months ago.” I sensed the agonizing pull that accompanied the calculation.
Thank goodness I answered the phone, I thought.
“Ah, R., I’m so sorry. What caused her to make that decision?”
R. described a reaction that was typical of a teenager who received a “no” that was cemented in safety. His step-fatherly concern meant the decision was not open for discussion. The teenager rebelled with a caustic sting that wounded his heart. She moved out. The joyful tone that typically identified this man on the phone was gone.
Our conversation continued as we visited various topics. R. is not a stranger to looking deeply into his bag of character defects. He checks that bag often because he knows about denial. He realizes he only wants to see good when he looks inside. He wants only the just and the sensible parts to be at work.
Surely, I thought, there are times when it really isn’t our bag that needs searching. Surely, I prayed, my friend can find an outlet for his love without such heartache.
So my patient and loving Guides. It will be great to hear from you about this subject.
Thank you for inviting our participation. We appreciate the caption you placed under your photograph of the clock. You have not always lived that concept.
No…especially when I was so intent upon my career that I put people in the back seat. I had been trained that feelings were an obstacle to success. When anyone asked me how I felt about something, I would say what I thought was the appropriate feeling. Whether it was my feeling or not was anyone’s guess.
Many fall prey to that belief system. They cannot see the actual interplay between the Divine Source and all that happens in life. Many do not realize there are illusions that enslave them. It is difficult to bring their attention to the authentic priorities of living.
Like your Spiritual teacher, Cynthia Bourgeault, discussed with you, people take offense over the idea of God. God cannot be proven to exist, they claim. However, time does not actually exist. Physical beings created time. People deny God, yet wear wristwatches and continuously worship time. Time is an illusion; it is one of the biggest dictates on the earthly plane. Time is used to brush aside the hearts and souls of countless numbers.
Answering your telephone and being with your friend was the only matter of import in that state you called ‘the now’.
So often I ignore calls with weird IDs. I suspected my Guides were nudging me. Thankfully, I paid attention. On a Webinar today, I heard a Light Worker, Doreen Virtue, speak on the various ways we can become aware of the presence of our spiritual guides, angel and archangels. She’s written numerous books about this subject. I experience your influences in many ways, big and small.
Doreen also said when she goes to conferences with other Light Workers, she rarely sees anyone wearing a watch. I realize that people use cellphones to check the time, but I don’t have a cell phone and I haven’t worn a watch for years. I seldom worry about the time…the last occasion was because it would take months to re-book a medical appointment if I missed it.
Regarding your prayer for R., he received the Divine Light you requested. As with Sam and her family. And Jamie. We acknowledge your inclusion of R.’s step-daughter and her grandmother. Your concern released Light for each one.
Understanding the need behind generosity can open hearts and present a deeper understanding for both givers and receivers. When a human is suffering, it is guaranteed there is suffering on both sides of the relationship. The suffering may be for different reasons and it may be denied, but suffering exists for both sides nonetheless.
Generosity can arise out of suffering. It can also be a form of condescension when it contains a “fix-it” focus. Giving abundantly can be an attempt to gain control or restore balance. The energy from over-giving sends a signal the receiver: “Be on alert”. The receiver may not understand what causes the un-ease and may chose the take the gift without looking at the teaching.
When a gift seems unappreciated, the giver is confused and may even feel victimized. In your world, generosity often has an agenda attached. It can be feeding an unhealthy need that the giver continuously avoids seeing.
You are really socking this to us. I certainly know we are given countless opportunities to finally see our agendas. It’s hard to face, but worth the view. It leads to freedom. This subject stirs my suspicion that few humans can actually give unconditionally.
Yes, there is a great deal of spiritual maturation required to attain such a position.
I think about the monks who beg on the streets. I used to believe that was only to teach humility. However, I recently had the tables turned. Apparently their gesture gives me an opportunity to give.
The monk is giving you a chance to look at how you give. The gesture is not about what you give, it’s about what is going on when you give. Could you give to the Monk and be sincerely thankful for the opportunity?
Wow, that’s really getting to the nub, isn’t it?
Any opportunity to give Love is an opportunity to give thanks to All There Is. If any human can give with thanks, they are illuminated from the inside out. They could not give away all that they receive.
We see this repeatedly in Hospice.
All of you have that potential for illumination. All of you are capable of giving with thanks. Abundance is immeasurable. Humans are slow to realize it is theirs for the asking, theirs for the taking and theirs for the giving. It is infinity. Think of the symbol and there is the answer.
Next time you give to a street person, thank them. Let them see you. It matters not what they are going to do with the gift. Let them see the Love that is in it. Let them sense the unconditional nature of your gift. Pass them the seed that can only flourish. It will fan the ember of their spirituality. There is no need to judge or be a jury. Give through an open window that shows the Love in your soul.
I think I just caught on: We are all ‘haves’. And we can all use time as a gift to give. In so doing, we can give whatever we have whenever we are being blessed with the opportunity to give.
For example, I was there to give whatever R. received. What he saw in my gift is none of my business. But I didn’t thank him. Oh, I thanked him for calling, but that was because he has the long distance plan and I don’t. Wow, that’s revealing!
I now thank him appropriately: “Thanks, Randy, for giving me the opportunity to be a friend. It made me feel whole.”
Peace and blessings on you. We are so grateful to serve with you.
Many, many thanks, my Beloveds.